Waiting is the hardest part

I didn't planned to fall in love with someone that lives from other half of the globe, but man, I did! Love indeed moves in a mysterious way. It has been six months since we became a romantic pair, virtually.

He plans to come here this year, to meet me and my family. We have become pretty serious with our relationship. I couldn't be any happier to have known someone pretty similar to me in almost anything. We have the same interests, genre of music, outlook in life and a lot more.

Debt Life

Let's admit it, we all have debt one way or the other. Since I am the only one working for my family and my siblings are all attending school. So, basically I have all the responsibilities to support them financially and emotionally.

I am only earning minimum wage every month and it's not enough to support my big family. So, we ended up loaning from friends and loan sharks. I ended up borrowing money from someone just to pay the other debt, so my debt up in a huge file. And oh boy how hard it is to have debt! If only I can turn back time, I would never ever get a loan from anyone.

I can not sleep peacefully every night thinking how to pay them off. I am trying so hard to make both ends meet. But, it's really hard. It gives me stress every single day. But well, I have to face all the consequences we have made.

I just hope and pray that God will give enough strength physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually to face everything. I admit that I actually feel scared but I have faith in God that everything will work out as He planned for me and my family.

Any advice on how to handle multiple debts will be highly appreciated.

No Ending

I have a big family and I am working for them. I am actually okay about it, since it is my responsibility as the eldest of the family. But, I just hate it how lazy my family members has become!

I hate that I still have to mind even the simplest thing in our household. I still have to demand them to do this, do that. I'm so tired of it. I just want them to do things on their own, because these things are too damn obvious. 

Do you have family members like this or know someone you know other than your family? Can you share some advice to me? Would really appreciate it.